“Everything worth having is scary”
I know I get on here every day and confidently write about finding your one true love as I talk myself through my own search for that special someone, but I have to tell you, sometimes I panic that it will never happen. I’ve placed such an emphasis over the years on finding a soulmate, settling down, and having that perfect family that occasionally I get so scared that it will never happen for me. I know, this pretty much goes against everything I’ve written about, but eh, I’m only human. I get frustrated, I get weak, and sometimes I just want to mope around all day in my underwear eating chocolate and feeling sorry for myself. Today was one of those days. Thankfully my mother bought me a bunch of mini Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups to ease the pain.
Last night, as I was still sitting half-naked, and now sick from too much sugar, a friend’s post popped up on the Hot Cup of Love’s facebook feed that reminded me that my feelings were completely justified. It read “Everything worth having is scary”, and it couldn’t have come at a more perfect time.
Of course! I tell people this all the time about love, yet it seems to escape me when faced with my own romantic dilemmas. You see, I don’t think I need to tell you that love is pretty damn scary. Time after time we are constantly putting our emotions out there, completely vulnerable, and exposed. It’s no wonder we all get a little nervous sometimes, myself especially- but is that such a bad thing?
Being scared about loving someone is natural and healthy. Being scared means you care so much about that person that you’re getting all worked up and anxious. Being scared means that not only are you consciously obsessed, but your sub-conscious is fully rattled also. That’s some pretty powerful stuff! But THAT’s what love is all about. That one person fully occupies you mentally and emotionally.
I have a confession to make. I know this girl who has me completely rattled. I don’t know if it will ever go anywhere, but I am scared, and she has in every way, shaken me mentally and emotionally.
She must be someone special. She’s absolutely someone special.